So i was thinking today, theres a good chance i'll never be as happy as i was when i was a kid, i mean back when i had a family. Now i've got a brother who i'll probably never get to speak to again, a mother who could care less about me, and a dead father. it's like a piece of me that i've lost, that no matter what, i'll never be able to get back, have again or even have that kind of 'family love' again. I think it bothers me sometimes more then others, times when in my heart, i crave a soothing voice that a mother can offer, or advice on something that you're just not quite sure about. Being able to call someone, just because, knowing that no matter what, you'll always have that person in your life.